I broke up with Facebook more than a month ago. At the time, I thought I would miss it. I wasn’t sure that I would be able to stay away from the lure of scrolling through a feed of other people’s lives. For so long, I was sure that Facebook kept me connected to the outside world. I genuinely enjoyed the banter between my friends, the support of some of the groups I belonged to and the pictures. Oh the pictures! It was my lifeline. It provided entertainment, inspiration and friendship, right? As a new mom, a stay at home mom, I needed to feel connected to others and Facebook was fitting the bill. At least that is what I told myself.
The truth is I don’t miss it. The truth is I find that I spend less time overall staring at my phone or buried in my laptop. Days go by and I don’t even fire up my laptop anymore. This blog should be your living proof and testament to that. It is sorely neglected. Less time engaged in the cyberworld has meant more time living in the real world.
In the real world, we do things. We have gone to the museum and the zoo. We have been to the aquarium. We take walks. Splash in the tub. Chase the dog around. Rake leaves. Play in the yard. Shop for new appliances. Make playdough. Cook dinner. We talk and laugh. Sometimes argue. We sleep in some mornings and some nights we still don’t sleep at all.
I am completely mesmerized watching my little one grow and develop each day. He is learning new skills and abilities every day and is so excited to share them with me. I don’t want to miss any of this. I want to drink every moment in and marinate in the sweetness of my little one’s joy. I want to make sure I hear all of his belly laughs. Whether it is 3 am or 3 pm, I want to be present and enjoy these sweet fleeting moments with him. I realize now that I was not connected on Facebook. I was distracted by Facebook.
I was missing this sweet little face looking up at me. I don’t want to miss these moments. Not now. Not ever.